Confidence and other terms

Ok, wow. I know it's terrible but it's been an awfully long time since I wrote a blog post. However, in light of this "finishing high school business" which is now complete, I have time to impart some knowledge from the huge list of things to blog about in my notes.



I don't think people would assume I lack confidence or self esteem, but while I don't mind singing (terribly) on assembly, or handing out flyers to strangers, I've managed to thus far exist with a very self deprecating attitude towards social interactions- and I think it might be detrimental to my creative success.

I figure there are two main (subconscious) thoughts people have when you meet them: "I'm so grateful for your attention" and "others are lucky to meet me".

The first sounds humble but it's actually pretty ridiculous- to use the Sound of Music as an example, it pretty much sums up Maria's attitude when she sings about confidence on the way to the von Trapp's- she's a kind, talented and fully grown adult letting the potentially opinions of a bunch of children turn her stomach. 

The latter seems arrogant, but I promise it's not- I'm pretty sure it's the most certain way to make friends and be 100% sure they don't pity you, and I reckon it's the best way to socialise without feeling like a cling-on.

How will people ever see my work if I expect them to initiate every time, just to be certain I'm not bothering their good selves? I've going to start actually offering people my sketchbook and letting them know I'm open to commissions- because from consuming copious amounts of youtube and instagram, it's finally struck me that a person's own confidence in their abilities is what validates their creations.

Anyway, this is just a reminder that you ARE worthy of success (but it's hard to convince other people of this if you don't believe it yourself). Any more thoughts are welcome in the comments!

xx